We went for our evening walk today after I got back from work, and I had a chance to see something I'd never seen before - a milksnake. It was just a young one, and he was sunning himself on the road. Somehow, he had been missed by all traffic, so I encouraged him off the road. Daniel was interested, but since the snake didn't feel like moving all that much, I don't think he really understood that it was alive. He identified it right away, which surprised me, as I don't think we have too many books with pictures of snakes, but he seemed to know what it was!
I've been discouraged the past couple days. It started on Friday, when I got an email from my supervisor, indicating our group was going to have a meeting on Wednesday. Judging from the tone of the email, I (accurately) surmised that it wasn't a chance to thank us for a job well done.
However, even with that, I was not prepared for what followed. There were a couple valid complaints that I had already identified and was working on. Apparently, she felt that she didn't have quite enough to totally demoralize us just with her own complaints, so she collected feedback from other people in the office, weeded out anything that was remotely good or complementary, and made sure we heard in stark detail every negative thing (justified or not) that had been said about us.
Talk about demoralizing. In one brief meeting (that felt much longer than it acutally was) I went from respecting my supervisor and enjoying my job to feeling sick to my stomach when I think about going back to work. I don't think I've ever been closer to walking out on a job than I have been since that meeting.
The worst part is, now I feel like I can't trust anyone at work, because I have had no negative feedback from any person, but apparently, there are people who have a problem with my work, and don't mind talking about it behind my back but smile and act like a friend to my face.
Well, I apologize for whining and complaining like this. I hope your week has been better!
2 comments:
Hang in there Josh...keep remembering that Jesus too had to turn the other cheek.
To update you on this situation, I had another meeting with my supervisor, and after some frank discussion, things are much better.
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